I would do things different

Drifting in this ship while the storm tosses us around, I have nothing to do but think back…well, not think back so much as wish things were how they were a few years back. When Allorana was more innocent, before her gifts started manifesting. I am exceedingly proud of her. of how she is blossoming, and how she is discovering her power…but I miss my little girl, and her innocence. She was so sweet—she still is—but she was not in the notice of other people’s powers when she was not in her power. She was more carefree. I miss my little girl, from then, and now. I wonder if she had never started coming into her powers if things would be different now, or if she would still be taken as a power-play for other purposes. the gods move in strange ways and things still play out even when we think the key elements have been changed. the chances are she would still be taken, but there is a chance she would not. If I could, I might change the fact of her powers. Then again…I might not. She would not be the being she is if it were not for her powers. I just don’t know anything any more. I never thought I would doubt anything the way I have since I woke with that clouded vision. If only this storm would pass so we know where we stand, so we can get our bearings and get to Atlantis…My entries will becoming more sporadic as our journey gets further underway and we become busier. I will enter them as I can.

~Shashanna