The best thing for me to do right now is to try to contact the gods. I know it is… but for the first time since I was a neophyte, I am doubting. I have been since I woke with the dream… since they took Allorana… since we set out in this ship… and since the storm hit. Since all of this started, there hasn’t been a moment that I haven’t doubted.
What if the gods have abandoned us. What if they have turned their backs and refuse to help? I should find out… even in that information is there power, but I am scared. All of these people depending on me. the life of my child is depending on me… and I am failing out of fear.
I never thought fear would disable me like this….